Hormones & Pain Relief

Time is ticking away quite fast lately and I cant stop it, this baby is coming wether we are ready or NOT! Luckily I beleive we are almost ready...Ill be ready in 2 weeks, eviction may be allowed from 23rd June (Nicola's birthday)

Last week, in fact almost exactly a week ago I had a little accident :( It was a public holiday here and my Moms away so Gerhard and I were relaxing with one another and I was on my way to check the laundry when i struck my baby toe with so much force against a doorframe. I cried and waited for the pain to leave..but it never did. I must of been in deep cry fro at least an hour, Gerhard didnt know what to do except suggest ice and I was getting so fed up with that suggestion as I couldnt possibly imagine the extra pain it would cause my poor toe.

Eventually I agreed to the ice to stop him from playing the guilt game while I was howling in pain - he kept telling me how I was doing all the things Google suggested NOT to do - not the support I was looking for..So I agreed to get the Fricking ice and leave me alone. Then he started whining how we have no ice at which point my crying came more out of frustration than pain.
Then I began thinking how much worse childbirth was going to be and I was barely handling a sprained tow - how on earth would I manage childbirth? So needless to say...more crying.

What a week that was, on Tuesday Gerhard had a work from home day as I was immobile. Food this week consisted of "Go to the shop find something microwavable/oven-heated and make it" I felt so bad. Mom had only been gone 3 days and I wanted to show my man what kind of domestic godess he had married and I couldnt even drag myself to the toilet! I missed my Mom too as I needed to be looked after.

That Tuesday was distrastorous as Gerhard kept leaving me all alone in my Moms room so he could watch TV or check his email or moan about his headache - I told him id gladly trade him my pulsating painful toe for his headache he said sure because clearly his headache was much worse. That really set me off! Not only was I immobile and couldnt even get to the toilet without such pain but I wasnt even able to sleep as the pain kept me awake. Luckily I had it confirmed by the midwife I called that I am actually allowed a max of 6 whole paracetomol tabs a day - thank GOODNESS! I needed 2 that night as one still had me awake from pain :(

The next day Gerhard went to work and I managed to stay downstairs all day and rest and things started getting a little bit better. I obviously gave pregnancy yoga a miss on the Thursday and on Friday Gerhard and I cycled over to the midwives as I didnt think i could manage such a long walk.

The midwife says baby is all well and has started engaging (I can feel that ouch!) and she also said he wasnt coming anytime soon and probably in 2 or 3 weeks, also she said he wont be too big a baby - not bigger than 4kg for sure so that made me happy.

This past weekend we trekked back to the pram shop to return their shop-model part for our new frame. Another mega mission. After some hissy-fit antics hubby and I ended up buying loads for our baby boy, a baby gym, lots of bottles and accessories, some blankets, a toy and a diaper bin! We had a very unhelpful person 'help' us exchange our parts so I was insitant that we set up the frame to make sure it worked (previously we received a frame that wouldnt fit a front wheel) While Gerhard was setting it up the 'helper' went to fish out the rear wheels of the shop-model from the box so I noticed if we had gone home with this box of ours we would of been minus 2 rear wheels..now THAT would of peed me off.

Regarding pain relief - we have been chatting alot about that between me and G and at antenatal. im becoming fed up with people telling me what I must and must not have...was very upset to hear they do NOT offer gas & air here in Holland, so my choices are either au natural or pethadine/epidural - which have all these negative side-effects for me and for baby. But after much deliberation Ive decided to try au natural as long as I can and then be advised by the midwife which pain relief would suit my situation. So Im open to anything really and am praying already that my labour will go as smoothly as it can.

Well thats more than enough ranting from me. I know Im being more moody and hormonal, but Im in so much pain sometimes. I feel so huge and heavy and when i wake up to pee in the night I have an urgent sensation im so scared Im going to wet the bed sometimes. I'm sure I can feel the babys head in my pelvis and sometimes its so uncomfortable and hurts so much. Looking forward to having baby here soon, just need to get through the last antenatal class and of course I got Sims 3 on Friday so I need time to play that too ;)