Tis the season to be blessed with friends & love

Well Im almost onto my 2nd trimester, how amazing it is that Christmas day marks the beginning of the 2nd tri for us, which also means heffalump is due in 6 months time, and so Christmas 2009 will mark baby heffalump's 6 months old day. Yes i have had alot of time to think about it!

When I went to the midwives last week (or the week before?) she was very sweet and understanding, she also said if i ever feel like that panic again i can just make an appointment to come over and use the doppler to hear the heartbeat. She lay me down and had a poke on my tummy (thank GOODNESS no Internal exams!!) and for a split-second I was scared she wouldnt find anything, but lo and behold she put the doppler on my tummy and as soon as it touched my skin we heart the most precious sound we have ever heard, Gerhard was almost in tears as we heard the fast little beats of the Heffalump.

My friend Lucille arrived on the 14th and I was so exited for her arrival I barely slept, I was up super early and so exited. its her first time ever leaving South Africa and when I lived there she moved to Johannesburg a few years back so its rare we see each other...this is the girl who has been my friend since we were 4 & 5 and our Barbies met by accident one day over the wall...
Its been great having someone to talk to at long last and seeing some new & interesting things here with her (penis shaped pasta & knitted wooly willy warmers!!)
Alas i think I might of broken her with all the walking and fresh air...but she seems happy.

On the 15th of December i dragged Lucille & my Mom for my NT scan, I brought my camera and asked my Mom & Lucille if I was allowed to, would they film the baby? They looked at me as if i was mad, but i didnt care too much. At the scan they put the dopple-thing on my tummy and immidiately we saw the Heffalump, I was nervous at first cos he was rather still but soon he/she was kicking away. it was amazing, my friend & mom were so shocked and in awe...ok me too its truley an awesome sight. The lady checked the upper lip and what she could see so far at 12 weeks its looking good, I had to have blood drawn and went into the 'prikcabines' for that...I have the results of the tests already and im a low-risk for Downs syndrome at 1 in 2228.

This past week we took Lucille and ourselves over to Maastricht for the weekend, it was loverly but I had an aweful train experience..The train ride is 2,5 hours and the train was getting PACKED and I needed to pee. I knew once we hit Maastricht we were gonna bus it for 20 mins then WALK another 20 mins. We were sitting on the top level and when I looked down the the train "lobby" it was jam-packed with ppl, there were ppl sitting on the staircase it was so full. Hubby insisted I better take the opportunity at the next stop to follow someone out down the stairs and nip to the loo, so I did, was a tight squeeze but the ppl managed to let us down and I went for the pee (ahhhh! relief!)Then to get back it was still rather squishy and tight, most ppl let me thru and told me "good luck" getting to the top. Then at the base of the stairs this old lady told me no its NOT possible to go up and wouldnt budge! (meanwhile My hubby had given up his seat upstairs for 2 old ladies!) and I told her but my seat is up there and she said no sorry...the next stop is maastricht anyway. So I stood one hand on my belly, one hand clenched tight. The train swerved and I was ready to tackle this lady down as my cushion is anything happened cos there was nothing to hold onto and I had 5 people touching me all round. I wished so bad I looked a little more pregnant so they would of had more mercy, but at this point i thought I might cry.As the train announced Maastricht she told me see it wasnt so bad, I gave her this evil look and told her that my bags were upstairs and now EVERYONE was gonna get off as this is the final stop, then she tried to make an effort and I managed to get up just before the stop. What a cow! What would you have done? Congrats on reading all that if u did btw! It has started me on a new phobia about train lobbies.

The weekend was at least quite loverly and Im not sure if it was all the food that I stuffed myself with but I am definatly starting to show a baby bump, its still rather squishy but its there.

Well I am off to try to be more social for Lucille's last 24 hours in Amsterdam!
Cheerio
x
Celine

The voice of doom that looms

Im going to the midwives tomorrow for a normal check-up but I keep reading about misscarriages and its making me so scared. So many people have been through them and I feel so sad for them and keep wondering if I will be next.I havent had any bleeding or spotting or spotting or anything but keep reading about ladies who have gone in for a check up only to be told their baby has died a week or 2 ago. Now on facebook I have a friend who was 3 weeks behind me in pregnancy and at 8 weeks she lost the baby being told the baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks I saw my baby at 7wks + 4 and it had a strong heartbeat and Im so scared something will go wrong..am I the only one like this?
So Im throwing out all my hopes and prayers that 2morrow will show us a happy & healthy heart-beating Heffalump x