Thankful

So a great start to a new year so far. Im hoping to get into a Dutch course at VU *holds thumbs* will know middle of February.

I had a slight panick lately because of these odd pains and uncomfort in my tummy. Im 17 and a half weeks pregnant and dont feel the baby, dont feel sick or nausea anymore which makes me feel so unpregnant. i went to the midwife today just to hear Heffalump's heartbeat for sanity sake and sure enough he/she is fine. Heffalump was quite the active baby as we struggled to pin him/her down long enough but I did hear a loverly strong heartbeat and we even heard a few kicks too...I think im in for a real rough time when I do start feeling those...

Ive been thinking more and more about what a little miracle little Heffalump is. Since Ive announced Im pregnant I have heard from a few others that are trying for a baby. It can be discouraging month after month when you want something so much, but it seems only God can decide when is the right time. There is a song Ive listened to quite alot lately that makes me think about how God has really blessed our family in the last year, as rough as it was. We have a roof over our heads, our health, and a bundle of love on the way...

Thankful - Josh Groban

Somedays we forget
To look around us
Somedays we can't see
The joy that surrounds us
So caught up inside ourselves
We take when we should give.

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be.
And on this day we hope for
What we still can't see.
It's up to us to be the change
And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.

Look beyond ourselves
There's so much sorrow
It's way too late to say
I'll cry tomorrow
Each of us must find our truth
It's so long overdue

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And every day we hope for
What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change
And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.

Even with our differences
There is a place we're all connected
Each of us can find each other's light
So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And on this day we hope for
What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change
And even though this world needs so much more
There's so much to be thankful for

Things that go bang in the night & day

New year is upon us and Ive found that 2009 is the year of Divine completeness...what will that bring?

2008 was the year of New Beginnings and I dont think I know of a single person who did not experince a new beginning last year...Least of all myself. A Year ago I was in South Africa feeling sorry for myself as my head throbbed to the beat of one too many cocktails. I had never set foot in Holland and was no where near pregnant.

All these changes have come at a price, I do miss my friends in South Africa alot, I miss being able to pick up the phone and go visit whenever I felt like it. Nicola and Sam are here, also 2 friends from high school and Im not looking forward to when they have to leave and remind me that Im rather lonely here. I know things will get better, if all esle fails the baby can be my friend!
But I dont for one second regret our big move. Its so beautiful and green here, so safe and kind to children and also to me. I know I feel good about being alive when im here and can walk through fields and parks and feel secure. I cant wait to have my little pram/pushcair/stroller/whatever to push along on loverly Summer walks and picnics.

My hopes or resolutions for the new year?
1. To be more patient (pregnancy hormones make me so cranky and impatient lately)
2. To try to meet some people in Holland to be social with
3. Try to get along more with my Mom
4. To be a great parent :)
5. To be a great friend especially to those so far away from me
6. To be Super-Wife!
7. To be able to have a converstaion (albeit a basic one) in Dutch to a Dutch person
8. To go to church more and read more from the Bible

Hope you all have a blessed New Year ahead!
x
Celine